i don't understand why she is lying t0 me. i spose she didn't want to tell me cause we're not really friends i guess.... its just a fake friendship, probably means nothing to her at all. its her choice if she tells me or not but does this means theres other things that she doesn't tell me either? probably loads. i dunno if i should give up on this friendship or not, i mean, sure its good sometimes, but there's so many things that kinda hint that she doesn't actually like me. arrgghh i should jsut take the hint and fuck off i guess, but i jsut love her. so confusing, i dunno what to do. let it ride i guess. i wonder if its the same for everyone else as well? do they ust pretend and stand there trying to give me hints to fuck off and trying to decided whether to jsut walk off or tell me what thy really feel or what? stupid, stupid life. why can't it just die for fucks sake.