i'm quite proud of myself. its night time and i'm happy! usually i feel bad at night. its been ages since i've been happy at night. maybe cause i might be seeing Tom on Sunday :D.
my nails look so fucked up. i was painting them black and my blacks gone all shity so they were chunky so i took it off, but now that i lookat them i did a shit job. i shall have to do it again.
i wonder if they make nail polish remover smell so bad. nothing is meant to smell that bad.
and i'm also proud of myself cause i haven't burnt tonight. i've started doing that again, over stupid things too. it seems every night i can find a reason to burn. but no where enar as bad as before. which is a good thing.
ok what the fuck it that...... like thunder, but not..... ah well
someone is in the kitchen having a binge....... i think its craig cause of the fottsteps but mums usually the one who gets up to eat.if they eat the rest of the sasuage rolls i shall have to kill them. they're for me and jess. ah well.
i made my bed for the first time these holidays. its actually really nice to have a made bed, i forgot what it was like to lay on my bed and not have the covers all over the place. except i was really dumb and made the bed with my phone in it. my phone is constantly in my bed. its strange, i know, but i'll wake up at like 4 and checkthe time then fall back asleep with the phone in my hand so then it magically gets to the bottom of my bed most nights.
i've finally started on my poster. quite pleased with it even though i've hardly done any. i'm not even fully sure what i'm gonna do once finished the drawing and writing. i want to paint over it in black but i think that would ruin some of the pics. but i also want the writing to stand out so i might only do that. but that would look strange...... i don't really want to leave it just in pencil, it needs something more.....
i really wanna get some sleeping pills so i can regulate my sleep. it's gonna be so annoying when i can't get to sleep before one oclock on a school night. i always regret going to bed late in the moring when i'm too tired to get up. its rediculous how bad i am at sleeping. sitting here my eyes are heavy and i'm really tired but even if i tried heaps hard it would be impossible. i can't even type properly i'm that stuffed. i'm getting heaps of sleep during the day but......