i'm so scared of tom. i want him to get angry with me, to have a fight. i'm getting way too close to him but i can't stop it. i want him to hit me across the face, make me bleed. i don't want to love him. every time i love someone it turns out badly.
i wish he'd do something, anything. i want him to abuse me, to hurt me and make me hate him now. i'm sick of waiting, it's gonna happen anyway so why not now.