i'm so jealous of the people how are able to tell people all their problems. fuck, i can't even write everything i want to in here cause i know some people read it. i am soo scared of someone finding out what happened before that i won't even mention it anywhere, not even my paper diary, in case someone reads it. it fucking sucks that i can't express all this shit in my head anywhere. i wont even let myself write down what i think about every single fucking day and then burn it. i'd be too paranoid that people would be able to magically unburn it and read it.....